I wrote a book.
I didn’t want to write this book. I ran from it for as long as I could. I was petrified of sharing the most shameful details of my life with the world. I didn’t want to be called a hypocrite. Acting all Holy when I have done some really shameful things. It is hard to connect the Bolatito who is always talking about God with the one who had two abortions when she was 19 and 20. I definitely didn’t want anyone to know THAT.
I didn’t want anyone to know about the sexual abuse and molestation I experienced as a young girl because they just make me feel so exposed and still ashamed. I didn’t want people to know about my insecurities and my desperation to just be loved and accepted. I spent so long trying to figure out who I was and for years I saw myself as worthless, damaged, broken, ugly, valueless. I was my biggest critic and I was my biggest Judge.
But God is just amazing. Everything I didn’t want to share is what he has healed me from. And as he healed me, he wants to heal others through my story. He wants everyone to know that he is the one who restores completely. The one who can use our biggest mess and turn it into a beautiful message. He wants to set so many people free from the bondage of guilt, shame, bitterness, anger, condemnation and every other negative emotion that has held you bound.
God has shown me that when he loves, he loves completely with an everlasting love and all that I am is in him. He has had to repair all that was broken in me and he has taken away every bit of shame, guilt, brokenness and condemnation. More than anything he has shown me who I am and who he created me to be. In his own image, I am the daughter of a King, I am a QUEEN, I am ROYALTY.
I share my journey of finding self worth, true love and freedom in this book. ROYALTY.