There is a point you will get to in your life where your personal feelings become a non factor. A point where you just completely follow as God leads despite how ‘difficult’ it is. I believe I am at that point. I choose to obey God because I know he loves me and he won’t let me be put to shame so I just DO as he says.
In May 2017, I had a strong urge to do a talk show. I noticed that people seem to think this whole concept of a very real God was an illusion and even though many were Christians, they didn’t REALLY have much of a relationship with GOD. I decided to speak to some of my friends and talk about their own personal experiences that solidified their faith and believe in God. As we planned and talked about it, my producer came up with the title: ‘MY JESUS EXPERIENCE” and it was the perfect Title. I wanted people to share their own individual Jesus Experiences to show those with questions that we all have very different relationships with Christ and the goal is for every individual to build their own personal RELATIONSHIP.
It was so awesome speaking to over 10 people with very unique stories and experiences and I was not planning to share my own experience. From day 1, God started to tell me that I should shoot my own episode. At this point, he had been speaking to me about writing a book as well. So after hours and hours of speaking to people and being really inspired but completely EXHAUSTED, my awesome producers started to ask if I was going to obey God and share my own story. At this point the make up artist was gone and I was soooo TIRED but you know how God works, if he wants you to do something, he’ll give you inner strength and he gave me that. I also didn’t have a plan on what I was going to say as I sat down but the Holy Spirit completely took over. In fact after filming I could barely remember ANYTHING.
A few weeks later, my producer decided to show me the rough edits of what we shot and he showed me mine and I cried. I cried because it was so clear that it was not really me speaking. I didn’t even remember saying any of the things I said. I also didn’t realise how perfectly this episode would play a big part of the message of my book. I didn’t know that I would even release the book before we premiered the talk show. In fact I had been so frustrated after filming as I was getting outrageous bills to edit the show and put it out. I didn’t realise that God had the perfect plan.
The truth is that God told me to write the book before shooting the talk show but I wanted to ignore the book. I had even shared the assignment of the book with my friend and when I told her I recorded an episode with my story, she said “but if God told you to write a book, then you should”. I thought I could control how everything was going to play out but God told me to write the book first and clearly he had a reason for it. So when I finished writing the book and watched this again, I saw how everything really works together for our good.
I have been planning to share “My Jesus Experience” for a long time but I was always hesitant for many reasons. I honestly didn’t want to share this part of my story but I am also learning that in this world I have the status of a King but I remain a servant to Christ. I got carried away with ‘self’ instead of just being obedient. The more I watch, the more I see God’s heart and its one of GRACE. Grace is unmerited favour and it comes from our Father because he loves us so much. I am learning all about God’s love all over again and so much has happened since this video was shot.
I am honestly grateful for the privilege God has given me to turn my ‘mess’ into a message. I pray for you, whoever you are, wherever you are and no matter what you are going though. I pray that you’ll truly accept and believe that God loves you with an unconditional love and it was that LOVE that led to your creation. He doesn’t want you to die silently under the burden of guilt, shame and condemnation. He wants you to thrive and be all that he has called you to be. HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH.
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