Happy Birthday to Me!!!

IT IS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!! I am soooo Happy!!! This birthday feels so different. I have such peace in my spirit. I just know I am entering a new season and even though I don’t know the when or why or how, I KNOW THE GOD I HAVE. I am grateful to God for being too good to me. I was just thinking about my life and I wrote a little letter to God. I am sharing it with you too. I am just in awe of how far God has brought me. I pray you enjoy God’s peace. I pray you know how much he loves you. I pray you will know him on a new level. I pray you will always find your joy in him. I pray he comforts you no matter what you are going through. I pray you know how much he loved you that he sent his only son to die for you. I pray you accept the love of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Do something kind today. Celebrate my birthday with me by being SUPER KIND TO SOMEONE TODAY!!! And thank you for even reading my posts, for emailing with your kind words. You have NO IDEA how God uses you to bless me and show me a little bit of who I am. THANK YOU!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Hello Dad,

It’s me. Your daughter. It’s my birthday today!!! YAYYYY!!! Of course you knew that, because you know EVERYTHING about me. You chose the day I came into this world, you created me in the secret place of my mother’s womb. You watched over me and made sure I was perfectly formed and at the right time, on this day, thirty one years ago, you brought me out to this place, this temporary home, to fulfil the purpose I was created for.

Dad, yesterday I was a bit sad. I let the liar get in my head. He told me I wasn’t good enough. He told me my life was on hold. He told me I won’t amount to much. He told me to be afraid about my future. He told me I have reached my peak. He said so many lies dad and for a split second I started to believe him. But because you are my Dad, you were also watching and you started to speak to me.

You told me: I haven’t even started. You told me I am just about to begin. You told me I have been under construction. You told me that the purpose you have called me for is greater than I can imagine. You told me that I carry a light and through me you will shine your light. You told me that you have called me to restore others and to give them comfort. You told me I am entering a new season. And as you spoke my heart became so glad. I started to see you in everything.

I saw you in my amazing husband, through whom you spoke to me. The one that is so excited for the future you have promised me. The one that opened my eyes to how much you have given me. The one that shows me that you are biased about me. The one who reminded me of your promises, even when I had forgotten. I saw you in my life. I saw you in the fact that I have great health. I saw you in the fact that I have more than I need despite choosing to stay at home to raise a son. I saw you in my son. I look at him and I am in awe of how perfectly you blessed me with him. I couldn’t have imagined he’ll be this awesome even if I tried. I saw how you have supplied all that we need to take care of him. I saw how you have protected and shielded me on numerous occasions. I saw you in the family I have and the friends I have. I saw you in the seemingly perfect coincidences that are creating the path which you have called me to walk. I saw you Lord and I see you Lord.

Today I wish I could say thank you a billion, zillion times. It still won’tbe enough. I never would have considered myself a worthy vessel but somehow you chose me. Me??? I am in awe of your grace Dad. I am in awe of your faithfulness. I am in awe of your mercy. I am in awe of your loving kindness. I am in awe of your unending love. I am in awe of you. My heart is filled with gratitude. You love me with a patience that outstands me. I know for a fact it is completely undeserved but yet you love me. My heart worships you. My soul magnifies you. My spirit yields to you. I AM IN AWE OF YOU. I AM IN AWE OF YOU. You are so perfect Dad. This girl is grateful to you. I wish I could express my gratitude in other ways. What would be adequate? NOTHING. You humble me Lord. I love you.

Thank you for another year. Thank you for calling me. Thank you for loving me. I am excited for where you are taking me. Teach me patience Dad. Help me to trust the process and enjoy the journey, I love you Dad. Thank you.

Happy birthday to me!