It is so odd, writing about the loss of a child, you fear that the words can never fully express the pain and the gravity of the situation. But I don’t mean to just express my pain and loss. I mean to show God’s power and love even in the darkest days.
I come from a culture of silence, where speaking about certain issues is almost taboo. One of the most kept secrets is when a woman loses a child, no one talks about it and it is almost like it never happened. People only speak about it when the woman has another child or they find out that you have lost a child. I fall in the category of the latter. I gave birth to my beautiful daughter on the 2nd of March 2015 and she passed away on the 3rd of March 2015 after 42 weeks pregnancy.
I remember my experience and every time, I marvel at the power of God to give unimaginable peace. I found out on the 22nd of January 2015 that my daughter had a condition called congenital diaphragmatic hernia; an extremely rare condition in which the diaphragm does not fully develop and has a hole. The diaphragm is the organ that separates the chest cavity from the abdomen. When it has a hole, it leaves space for the organs in the abdomen including the stomach, liver and kidneys to go into the chest cavity. This means they take up space meant for the organs in the chest cavity and barely leave room for them to grow.
In my daughter’s case, her heart ended up being pushed to the right and her lungs barely developed. In fact she only had one lung and that was almost undeveloped. The summary of this, they told me, is that once she was born, she won’t be able to breathe on her own due to lack of lungs and the positioning of the heart. The ironic part is the fact that as they spoke I could feel her kicking and turning. This made it very difficult for me to understand what they were saying and they emphasised to me that I was keeping her alive through my placenta. They emphasized that once she was brought into the world, she had less than a 15% chance of survival only achievable with intense medical intervention. She was also a very small baby and so there was a limit to how much her body would be able to take even with intervention.
They literally told me she was going to die.
Now as a Christian, I only knew one thing. I had FAITH. My Faith was that God would perform a miracle that’ll shock them. They only knew medicine but they didn’t know my God. Jesus woke Lazarus up from death after 3 days in the grave. Jesus Christ said that faith of a mustard seed could move mountains and I TRULY believe that. My faith was completely childlike and I prayed every day that God would perform a miracle for me. I asked God to shame the forces of evil that wanted to hurt my daughter and take her away. I called on my Church family and my husband and I told those closest to us to join us in prayer and I documented the process with videos so I could share my testimony with the world. And my baby girl was so active, she would kick and turn when I prayed and took communion. She strengthened my faith.
When my daughter was born, after 14 hours in labour, I saw her try hard to take breaths but she couldn’t. I saw how beautiful she was in a few quick seconds before they had to take her to NICU to try to save her life. She was so small but so incredibly beautiful with SO MUCH HAIR!!! For some reason I cannot forget her beautiful head of hair. I truly believed when they took her away, they will come back to me with an apology for doubting my faith and they will realise she was completely healthy. I kept waiting for them to come and give me the update and they eventually did. But contrary to my expectations, they came to tell me just how serious the situation was and how bad it looked. They had tried everything but it all seemed to have no effect. They were just going to monitor her for the next few days and see if she improved. I knew when they said this that she was definitely going to improve. I am a believer in the word of God that says where there is life there is hope, so my hope did not wane for a second.
Even when the doctor came to call me that her case had deteriorated and I should come and spend some time with her, I thought it was because God needed me to be present for the miracle (lol…like God needs anyone’s help). So I was very excited to go and be with my baby girl. I will never forget entering the NICU room and seeing all the babies in their incubators and then I saw my baby girl with all types of wires on her while the Doctors were pressing her chest because her heart had stopped. She was so small and they could only use a few fingers to administer CPR and even then I knew she was going to be just fine. God waited 3 days to bring Lazarus back to life so my baby was definitely going to be fine.
I asked if I could carry her and they said yes. I put her close to my chest, and put my breast on her mouth and tried to make her suck but she just couldn’t because she didn’t have the strength, so I just held her close and talked to her and sang to her. I told her how much I loved her and how much I wanted to be her mum and how much I wanted to take her home with me. I begged God to please save my baby’s life. I told her to shame the Doctors and Nurses that told me she won’t make it through the night. My husband took pictures of us and I still look at those sometimes. He also took pictures with her and held her close and just enjoyed having his daughter in his arms and I took pictures of them. I saw him become a Dad in the way he carried her and instructed me on carrying her and that was beautiful and comforting because I knew he was a wonderful father. As we spent time with her, the doctor and nurses kept coming to check her pulse and every time it seemed it was harder to find a pulse but that didn’t deter my faith.
Then I got really tired all of a sudden and I could barely keep my eyes open. My husband was holding our daughter and somehow I drifted to sleep. I have no idea how many minutes I had been asleep for but it felt quite long but also quite short. I can’t explain it but I knew it was God who put me to sleep to avoid seeing the actual moment she passed away. When I woke up, my husband was still holding her but I immediately knew that my baby girl had gone home to heaven to be with her ultimate father and creator. I asked my husband and he told me she was completely cold and stiff in his hands and I was okay with it. I still cannot explain how I did not run mad and how my heart was so calm. I just accepted it or maybe it was because a part of me still knew God could turn the situation around. We eventually called the Doctor and told her our baby girl was gone and she took her from my husband’s arms. We quietly went back to our room in complete silence; there was just nothing to say.
Even as the Chaplain came in to the room to comfort us with pictures of her and birth certificate and little mementos from the hospital, I was still just numb. I told him I felt ashamed that I lost the battle despite my faith. He reminded me that in this world we fight many battles but we are in a war and it is ultimately about winning the war. I also remember our dear friend Erina Raji came to see us a few hours later, I just wanted to sing and praise God! I wanted to so badly sing that I was humming the words to ‘My God is Awesome’ by Charles Jenkins and Erina goes ‘Tito wants to sing’ and I just sang.
This is the point I saw my test become my testimony. This is when I realised I had reached a new level of faith. A point where like Job I could say ‘Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him.’ I NEVER in a million years thought I would be able to praise God when my daughter had just passed away and this is why I call this experience a testimony. God put peace in my heart and song on my lips. I knew even in the blur of my pain that ‘everything would work for my good’. I was also able to say that ‘God loves her more than I could ever have loved her’ and I knew it hurt him more than it hurt me to see me in so much pain because as my Father he always wants to give me everything I ask him for. I immediately knew that the fact that our daughter was taken away must eventually be part of God’s purpose for our lives in someway. After all I knew that God is the Alpha and the Omega and he knows the end from the beginning and his plans for me are always good.
This might all sound contradictory to someone who is not acquainted with my God and I might have agreed if I was an outsider. However, my relationship with God had gotten to the point that I realised that although it was the enemy that caused us the pain, God could have stopped it but he chose not to. I realised that with the way we called out to him within the 6 weeks period leading to her birth, God could have definitely changed things but he didn’t because he had a different plan. I remembered Jesus Christ before He was crucified was in so much anxiety as He prayed that blood dripped out as sweat and He asked His Father to take the cup away from Him but He ultimately said the words ‘let your will be done’. And I remember saying to people that even though the enemy thought he had won, he was going to regret it because God is the one who restores and when He does He would bring more blessings just as with Job. I just wondered HOW????
I realised that my love for GOD is supreme and being his daughter was the most important reason for my life. As Christians, we pray all the time ‘let your will be done’ and assume there will be no pain. I wonder if many of us will still praise God when we experience pain. Would we still proclaim his love for us or would we give up on him? I realised that I had grown so much that this storm did not distract me from the still small voice of my God which says ‘be still and know that I am God’. Beyond all of this, I am able to thank God for everything he has done for me through my experience.
My relationship with my husband is on a new level of closeness that I did not think was possible. Our love for each other has grown deeper and this also translates to our love for God. My husband is such an incredible support system that I know for a fact God brought the two of us together for a reason. He had a small settee to sit on when we were at the hospital but he was just so focused on me that his discomfort was almost non-existent. We prayed together so much and his faith strengthened mine and I will always praise God for blessing me with a man after His heart that I can share my faith with. I should also apologise that this experience seems like it only happened to me but we both went through this emotional roller coaster and reached the conclusion that God remains God.
The reason I am sharing this is not because I want a pity party but because I want to share God’s love even in the midst of pain. I want to share His love NOW. A lot of times when we go through difficult moments as Christians, we seem to forget all about God and we just wait until times get good again before sharing our testimonies. We almost forget that it is God that holds us up when we could have broken down. It is God that sustains us and gives us the ability to move forward. I love the quote that says ‘until the doors of blessings open, praise God in the hallway”. A lot of people have marvelled at my husband and I’s ability to move forward so fluidly and so strongly but we are always quick to give God the Praise. My best friends kept asking me the question ‘are you sleeping now’ a few days after and I always laughed because sleep was not a problem.
God told me he expects me to share this with the world and not wait until the next baby dedication. He wants you to know that he remains God even when you are hurting and he is the balm of Gilead. I acknowledge that this was not just by my strength, God sent us so many helpers and they truly built me up during the times when I got so low that I didn’t even know how to pray or read my bible. God really would not give you a challenge you cannot handle. I have complete confidence and peace in my heart and know that greater things are coming, but right now I just want to let the world know that God is ALWAYS good even while you wait. Praise him always!
Wow! Praise him always.. I pray for strength like yours Tito.. I lost my dad almost a year ago and it literally felt like my world came crashing down, my heart was about to stop when I was told but your story just stresses God’s point- that his will be done. I pray that God comforts you and I know that he has something better in store for you! God’s grace upon you and your husband.
Hi Sayo, I am so sorry to hear about your Dad. I am so happy you have sought comfort in God. He is the BEST Father and he is there for you. Remember your Dad is with him now, and God has promised to watch over you. God has promised you this:“I will be a Father to you and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty.” (2 Corinthians 6:18 & 2 Samuel 7:14). God bless you always.x
May God see you through Sayo! Hi Tito, I couldn’t find where to comment (lol) I lost my brother approximately 2years ago. The most amazing thing is, about a year before he passed on, my eldest brother was sick for 3 months nd the doctors couldn’t even tell us what the problem was (he was a medical doctor too) about the 2nd month of his travail, I went to God and made a prayer "I said God, Wether you health my brother or not you remain God and I will remain thankful no matter what happens I will praise you!" After that prayer, I let it go and miraculously hr got healed. My brother that died….died so suddenly and unexpectedly right before my eyes….it was tough! But I found solace in the prayer I made for my other brother that is alive…….I miss him everyday but my Faith in God didn’t shake. Thanks Tobi for sending me the link.
Amazing testimony of Gods love in the midst of pain. God bless you for sharing.
THANKS SO MUCH OMI!! God would bless you too beyond your wildest imaginations.
It is very important to have a personal relationship with God. It is only when you do, that one can go through what you have been through and still glorify God’s name and encourage others. I lost my mum and for a good year I was angry at God. I couldn’t bring myself to pray because I had used up (atleast I thought I had) used up every shred of faith I had. Just like you, even when people started coming to give their condolences I truly believed that God would raise her like he did Lazarus. I felt so sure. But as God will have it, he didn’t. So I lost my faith. I still went to church but I couldn’t understand why he didn’t answer my prayers. Looking back now, I can say that I didn’t really have a personal relationship with God. I was merely a religious Christian. Unlike you, I didn’t have the type of relationship I needed to get through those times. But you know the God we serve is special, even when we are faithless he remains faithful. He didn’t abandon me or my family. While some families suffer when one parent dies, things became even better for us. We didn’t pray for it, God just worked it out that way. I’m sorry for writing such a long comment. Your story has just inspired me to continue to consciously pursue a relationship with God above everything else. I wish you and your husband continuous love, joy and peace. Eyes have not seen, ears haven’t heard what he has in store for you. Thank you for sharing.
This was incredible to read!!! I am planning to do a post on building a personal relationship with God and you’ve said it all. It really is all that matters. A year ago, God started speaking to me very clearly and saying to me; ‘seek me first’ and I had no clue what it was all about.
Luckily for me my church does a discipleship course and my Pastor had pleaded with us to take the course and build our own personal relationship, so I started the course. And looking back now, I see that God truly know all, because that course changed my life and I began to truly know God for God. It is part of what God used to prepare me for my challenge.
I am so grateful for your message and my prayer for you is that your relationship with God would grow even deeper. Thanks so much for your prayers!! God bless you!
Gods sovereign power remains ABSOLUTE even in the middle of our struggles. We are more than conquers Tito. He will test our faith as we grow spiritually. And this is when we show how much we love Him…..sigh God is incredibly awesome…..His ways baffle me…..but we keep loving Him regardless! In the midst of the storm I have learnt that ‘just giving praise’ is what brings undeniable peace…..It seems awkward to be in pain and still sing to Him, telling Him how great and mighty He is….but the peace, its unexplainable. All I know is God remains God through our good or bad times. Lets keep on searching for more of Him and may He constantly feel us up with His love.
I read your post and wanted to start crying but almost immediately I started laughing. I remember that week when the Doctors literally locked me up and said I can’t leave the hospital until they remove my last surviving Fallopian tube and terminate the pregnancy. I prayed so much, my faith level was so high but still the tube and baby had to be removed. To be told you can’t conceive naturally again is a moment that can break any woman but I just felt this peace that truly passes all understanding. I started thanking Him for a successful operation and I wanted to know what next. I felt IVF would be a walk in the park. It’s funny now because I have had 3 ectopic pregnancies and now 3 failed ivfs. I am not ashamed and I pray by our testimonies others will begin to praise God through the storm like we have chosen to do, that they also will experience this peace. My cousin once said I am lucky because I was able to get pregnant even though it got terminated. That she would have been grateful to experience the joy of a positive pregnancy result after many years of marriage. How can I consider it lucky to see positive result but all the babies were terminated? That’s when I realised women are indeed suffering in silence. We shall all experience the full complete joy of receiving our gift from God IJN. I sometimes wonder why husbands are not referred to as gifts from God. Your husband and mine are nothing short of a luxury gift. God Bless you for this testimony. You shall keep testifying of the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living IJN.
My God! Tito, I cried like a baby… God will continue to strengthen you and your husband. Praise God for His Love!
God indeed is always good. Thank you for sharing your testimony my love, i have heard you talk about this from when it happened, but never felt the impact until now, from reading your testimony! You are my inspiration, and your level of faith despite all, has shown me, and I am sure a lot of your friends alike, that Faith in God’s abilities, is truly what we need in ALL situations, and to completely put our trust in him, and him alone. I pray your testimony is shared with those that need to know God more, and will be used to win more souls for Christ. May the good lord continue to bless the works of your hands, the words of your mouth/mind; and give you the grace and spiritual wisdom to see this new stage in your life through. So so proud of you Tits! I cant stop saying that.
Thank you for sharing this testimony. May the joy of the Lord continue to be your strength.
My darling…I always try to tell people that God’s plans are always solid. Some think I’m crazy and others agree. They don’t understand how one can be normal and still be trusting the same God who could have saved you from the pain and trauma but Jer 29:11 is my daily mantra. Sometimes, I feel like I can hear him saying "For I know the plans I have for you,” “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Thanks for sharing this story and I pray that God comforts and compensates you both and other people who can relate to the loss of a loved one.
Bolatito dear, couldn’t help but shed a few tears at your strength. You are an amazing woman and would be an even better mom than you could ever comprehend. To God be the glory, great things He hath done. It is well with you and your great husband. God bless you both, keep the faith strong. Much love
Thanks for sharing the trial of your faith with us.It sound to my hearing as one 0f those bible story, notting short of a wonderful praise report absolutely life changing; it brought tears out of my eyes as I read through woww! What appear as your disappointment has brought so much glory to God; as I read other people’s comments of how your testimony has inspired their level of faith I had a little understanding of why God would allow it in the first place and then asked you to write about it again. You know what!! It’s now producing glory and uplifting life for the Kingdom. Also I must point out that you have an incredible writing skill and sound biblical base.
I pray for you that the SOVEREIGN KING who allowed "this" will give you ""dubble"" for your shame but faith.
There will be another writing soon of come and join me sing hallelujah Jehovah Jireh has done me well in Jesus mighty name.
I shed tears after reading your story. It took me back to six years ago when I had me daughter. I was told at 34 weeks that my baby had stopped growing and they had to induce delivery. She was so small at birth and had to stay in the incubator for two weeks. The first time I tried to feed her she could not latch on to my breast because she was too small and she started crying when she got tired. The nurse had to pass a tube through her nose to feed her the breast milk I expressed. Debbie is going to be six years old next month, she has mild autism but she is such a fighter. God would put a smile on you and your husbands faces, you are very lucky that he has been supportive through all this. The Lord is your strength, God bless you.
This is so beautiful Tito! Thanks for sharing your testimony, it strenghtens my faith. It sings to my heart and shares in a my go to bible phrases of God’s greatness…may God’s will be done – we do not know God’s plans for us but we know he is merciful and just. This too shall pass – there is no test in our life’s that we can’t overcome, God in his mercifulness has endowed us with the resliince to overcome, to grow stronger in faith, draw nearer to him and grow from our experiences.
Love you Tito xxx
Tracy koomson x
Christ in you.. the hope of glory! How wonderful!. you certainly don’t know me from anywhere, I came across this link from a friend’s post. I am going through
few things and I still had to open my bible this morning just to feel better even tho a part of me didn’t want to. Your post hasn’t only strengthened my faith.. it just added wisdom to my life that can’t be removed anymore. This is the most inspirational I have ever come across. It is not just a testimony, it is life changing. How much more of an amazing woman can you be, you are a reflection of Christ. Even with the trials he still stood firm on the love of God. I know and I pray the God of all good things will grant you and your household more than you could ever wish for. As you have healed my heart from distress and little faith I was hanging on to. May our God grant you overwhelming joy, needs, and abundance of all great things in Jesus name. Amen.
You are a testimony and God will surprise you with all that you seek beyond your imagination. Amen
"…as the heavens are higher than the earth, do are his ways higher than our way" … Regardless of the ‘present’ pain I really believe that God is working a greater purpose in both you and your husbands life. Thanks for sharing your story, I look forward to also sharing in your joy., and I know that when God does a joyous thing there will be no sorrow added.
Thanks so much for sharing your story. You have really encouraged me because it takes true faith and strength to keep believing and to obey.When we go through tough times,it is God who strengthens our inner man and gives us true peace and complete healing. Your joy will overflow. Love
God is most glorified when we are most satisfied in him. This is a truth I have read and I am still trying to wrap my mind around, Your story screams this truth so loudly.
May this joy you have found in Christ continually deepen through the ups and downs of life.
Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Your desire is coming to life..
I commend you Tito for this article. Thank you for sharing your testimony. May the Lord use it to bring healing and restoration to others. Well done my love.
Temitope Oluwasegun
I dont usually comment on posts but this moved me so much I had to say something. God bless you for this inspiring message and deep revelation of Him. May you continue to grow in the knowledge, love and understanding of our Father.
You are so strong and I couldn’t help the tears,. I know that even with the words, You cannot express how hurting and painful it is. I am thankful for your strength and how this will help other women in similar shoes. The Good Lord will continually give you grace., Thank you for sharing and God bless you.
Thank you so much for sharing. God truly is amazing your level of faith despite all you have gone through is inspiring. I know this act of diligence will not only give you want you truly desire but what His perfect gift for you will be.
Thanks for sharing Tito. This goes a long way in strengthening my faith in God and the reassurance that God is always there.
This moved me to tears tito because I kept waiting to see the beautiful pics on your instagram
I am so glad you got the strength to yet praise God even in the midst of your seeming storm
Your faith is out of this world and it is worth emulating.Because you still judge God faithful he will come through for you speedily.
Keep praising him dear because he has so much more in store for you
xxxxxx
can’t help the tears!!!! God Bless You Tito!!…..God Bless You So Much!!….God Bless You…… Thank You So Much for Sharing!……….thank you for reminding me of The Redeeming Love Of God!
Tito the Lord will always be your strength. Wish you and your husband all the best in life. The Lord that never leaves his pple will grant you another beautiful baby soon. Hugs
i dont think any post has touched me as much as this bcos it just takes me back to losing my daughter also after 42 weeks.its too deep to explain and i still dnt know how i got through it as calmly as i did.i can absolutely say i feel ur loss/pain.and d tragedy also brought my husband and i closer.
my heart really goes out to you and i pray your deepest desires and prayers is answered by God.
you will not forget this but you will surely feel better and things will be great with you and your husband
i am sending you so much love,positivity and prayer.lara
Tito I don’t even know where to begin. The fact that you went through all of that and you are still able to come out and give this testimony is definitely a testament unto God. I pray that God will continue to renew your strenth and that of your husband. May he give you a new song to sing and a reason to rejoice sooner than even you expect. I am super proud of you for using this platform to encourage others who may be silently dealing with the loss of a loved one. It is wel by God’s grace. Amen
Cyber Hugs Sugar! I can totally relate to your loss and I can tell you from experience that he will pacify you! Your Remilekun is not far away!. Even in Faith I am sure you can’t wrap your head around how to get past this but trust me when I say he will heal you completely and turn your mourning into gladness speedily and with absolute Grace!
It is well. Tito. I have been there .My baby was dead in my womb for 3 days and I was carry poison in my human system. A lifeless baby gave me force labor to come out. She was decade and can not see any part of her body. The Grace of God saved me. We are a living testimony.
Thank you for sharing. You touched my life with your testimony. God bless you and your husband always.
I don’t know you, but I am deeply moved by your testimony and your faith level, because often times as Christians we lose hold of our faith in the midst of pain, But to hear about this type of faith in the face of about the most difficult thing that anyone could ever go through is such an encouragement and I bless God for your life and testimony. I prophesy Isaiah 61 into your life, that which God is getting ready to do for you and your family will be sure and permanent. Thank you so much for sharing your story and sharing this God with the world, your reward will not fail!!From here on, I will join my faith with yours and pray with you
God bless you for using your testimony to bless others . God will bless your family far beyond what you have imagined and use you as an instrument in his kingdom. He has already started . I don’t know you but I am sending lots of love your way and mighty soothing hugs
Wow God bless you for sharing sis. You just made my faith stronger. I am definitely going to be a mother. And yes you too. You will surely see ur children grow in wisdom and strength. # now I need to share my testimony# #jesusislord
God bless you real good.Even though i cant relate to your loss except that i lost my mum,just a year after my marriage, i thank God for your faith.I have lived abroad ,away from my husband for the past 10 years,reading through your write up has strengthened my faith in God that for every test,there is always a testimony. Our tests come in different forms,and God supplies strength as we release ourselves to him.Keep bouncing in the joy of the Lord. MUCH LOVE ND BLESSINGS TO YOUR FAMILY
Sonia
WHAT A POWERFUL TESTIMONY! I bless the Lord for your strenght, your heart, and your faith!
I think that anybody can relate…I mean, we are all in the waiting room for one reason or the other -don’t get me wrong please, I refer to the wait, and not necessarily to the pain. I can imagine that this kind of loss as nothing to do with other grieves; and I respect that. -but as I wait for mariage since 2010 I’ve gone through several stages: prayers, expectations, deceptions…silence, hope, prayers, yet another deception, etc.
But reading your testimony just reminded me of the goodness of our Lord; I’ll join you in praising Him in the meantime 😉
THANK YOU. May the LORD BLESS YOU and YOUR HUSBAND BEYOND YOUR EXPECTATIONS: this mourning, He will turn it into dancing…BE ENCOURAGED TODAY; and tomorrow till it comes to pass!
Hi Sonia,
I totally get what you mean, everyone is believing God for one thing or the other. I love that you continue to trust God!!! He has a perfect mate waiting for you and in his time you’ll meet each other. Continue to bless God for who God is.
Thanks so much for the kind words, I truly appreciate every word.
Wow! Your testimony is such a blessing and comfort to me even in my own time of grief. God bless you for staying faithful and sharing this…
Hi Ify,
God would comfort you always!!!
God bless you
God bless you!
my daughter was born in March too with hearing loss and just like you I had so much and prayed that she will pass her hearing tests. I cried like a baby when they told me she failed, but through those tears, I knew God was and is still in control.
That experience has brought me closer to God and has shown me that indeed His ways are not our ways.
I pray that He will continue to strengthen your faith and your love for Him and trust in Him will never fade.
Wow, Chichi, congratulations on the birth of your lovely daughter. Please don’t lose faith. God can do ANYTHING!!! Just let your faith remain in him and trust him regardless!
Your testimony is very timely for me. God bless you and continue to keep you. You will be great and happiness and peace are yours.
Thanks so much!
God bless you for sharing your story and the strength you got from trusting God. We all go through difficult times ( I just lost a close friend – he was shot by armed men n it’s been really hard) but God remains faithful. He still knows, cares n stays by us through it all. As long as we hold on He always comes through.
God bless you!
Your testimony is a blessing to me and I’m sure others. Through it all, God has shown Himself faithful and true. God bless you and yours.
Thank you for sharing your testimony. Your strength and trust in God has taught me so much.
My goodness this has to be the most touching testimony ever. I was blessed to be pregnant last year however discovered at the 12 week scan that our beautiful baby had stopped growing at 9wks. Nothing compared to your experience but even with that, we trusted God. My husband and I trusted God and knowing we have a heavenly father who loves us beyond what we can ever imagine helped us through and just like you and your husband’s relationship, this experience strengthened our love…and keeps us together while we continue our TTC journey.
You are such a brave person to share this testimony but I know that God works everything together for God for those who 1.love him and 2.are called according to his purpose which we all are (as he knew us before we were formed in our mothers womb) and gave us the opportunity to be alive.
God is great and I pray you and your husband will flourish and birth as many as your heart desires. x
Thanks so much for this message, God will bless you with many children in Jesus name. I guess you can have fun while continuing your ttc journey. lol.
Wow. You don’t know how much reading this has given me hope and reminded me to Praise Him always. You are Blessed and so is your husband. Sooo much greatness is in store for you both.
Thank you for sharing. You’re a Godsend.
I am so glad for this Abi, Thanks so so much!
Thank you Tito, reading this and shedding tears while running to hug my children and begging God for forgiveness at the same time has just changed my mindset. Am going through some challenges right now and I have fasted, prayed, sacrificed,praised God but yet nothing has happened and am just trying to keep trusting me as there’s no one to talk to or turn to for help.
But you just strengthened my faith and I will wait on Him no matter what.
This too shall pass! My testimony is now. Am praising him now cos have not done that from my heart in like 2weeks. Thank you Tito
He’s going to shock you with a much more greater testimony in Jesus name. Amen
Hi Modupe,
Thanks so much for this message. There is always something to thank God for. I always try to put everything in perspective. I thank God for the smallest things, for a bed to wake up on, for health,for every organ that works, for my husband, for my friends, for my family, for every little thing. Once we do that, we begin to understand God’s supremacy even more.
I am so sorry you are going through challenges but I promise you, it can’t last for ever. Start thanking God now. That’s what Faith is all about.
this is a community for us to encourage each other. If you are looking for a place to share, please just email me with the challenges but believe me, we will protect your privacy and hopefully you will feel strengthened here.
God is always with you, please believe that!!! God bless you. Tito.x
What a wonderful way to honour your beautiful girl in the arms of our Father, I’m pretty sure she’s beaming with pride at her brave mummy. That’s what brought the tears to my eyes, THIS (meaning you Tito) is the definition of a mum – unimaginable immeasurable love, pride, faith, fear, protectiveness and yes we will brag about each beautiful strand of hair on their head! 🙂 You’re a mama, and a super one I dare to say. Carry on with your work, the younger siblings will be coming along soon by His grace and you and hubby continue to take good care of each other. Mama will eventually grow old and grey and finally come home, where I can imagine your gorgeous girl would have made extra special preparations for her MAMA!, her heart, as she is yours. x
Wow Moyo, this comment made me cry. thanks so much!!! I truly appreciate it. God bless you. x
I seriously can’t move.I am numbed with tears.God bless u and may he give u beauty for ashes
Thanks so much Omololu!!
we had a similar experience..but i just couldn’t bear to hold my child. it took me a while to look at his pictures which i did just once. i can tell you the experience was really heartbreaking because i and husband prayed and prayed and asked God to prove his word in our lives. we wanted a boy and we got him why did he have to develop issues, get better just a day to the scheduled CS and die?. i have only told my pastors the full story because telling people made the pain worse. this experience has brought me closer to God and i have read alot of books too. ‘you cannot call yourself a victor if you have not gone through challenges’ -this keeps me going. my new understanding on Gods love also has given me so much hope – Gods love for us doesn’t mean we wouldn’t go through challenges…it means we would go through them and surely overcome!. i have so much to say but the story is long!
i admire your strenght to share this!!! you truly are a blessing! we all will come to celebrate your victory on this site really soon…God’s love never fails!! God bless you Tito
Dear Damola, I am truly sorry about the loss of your beautiful boy. "you can not call yourself a victor if you have not gone through challenges"- SO TRUE!!!
Please feel free to express yourself, that is what this site is for. Thanks so much for all you said. God will bless you with many more beautiful babies in Jesus Name.
Amen!
I lost my mum my best friend about a year ago, how i survived it could only have been God, it happened in a space of one week, no warning nothing, a few months to my wedding as well. It just seemed like i knew the right things to say, the right attitude, i mean i went to pick up the death certificate and the doctors were looking at me with such a pity face. I was even consoling a couple of my friends. Looking back, i know it had to be God because i cant explain where i got the strength from. The first time i went to church after she passed on i had to write out my testimony for the pastor to read out, but i was too weak to even praise God right there in the church i just couldn’t explain it. At some point i felt like i was betrayed because i prayed and my faith was unshakable losing her was the least thing on my mind but we did and a year down the line we are still doing okay. i know for sure that God never gives us more than what we can handle. God would definitely give you more reasons to smile and bless your family abundantly. He always meets us at the point of our needs. It is well
Amazing…my Tito & Bez…sooo blessed by this story…You both make God and Love so Beautiful. Thanks for sharing my darling Tito, You have always had such a big heart. Yourself and Hubby are indeed Blessed.
Love- D.dot
It’s such an amazing experience for me whenever I realise that I have heroes like you and my sis in my midst..I was reading the other day on a christian blog, this lady going through so much was asking the obvious question that why is she, a dedicated christian, sufferring several dissapointments and pain, while atheists all around her, who constantly disrespect God are seemingly thriving with the best that life has to offer; she asked what is the point?..I love you and thank you for sharing this painful yet very powerful message Tito and I will be sure to send the link to her..I believe this answers many of the difficult questions we as Christians have…when we can totally submit to His will then the test becomes the testimony
I remember when I was suffering from severe anxiety attacks at the end of 2013 till mid last year..it made no sense and I became socially withdrawn, many of my friends noticed because I’m usually so bubbly. I was so afraid and had to see a therapist. In Nigeria any mental issue is another taboo lol I remember telling my fiance at the time that if I told any one they’ll just say I’m crazy. I didn’t understand why this would be happening to me, but now I am so grateful for the storm that caused me to forge a beautiful relationship with Him. I now realise that before my experience I really had no clue what it meant to be a child of God. My life now has new meaning and I see things differently now. Like Paul said, my weakness at the time allowed me to feel God’s awesome strength and I no longer lean on my own understanding in any situation. It was the best thing that could have ever happened to me.
My condolences to you Tito but at the same time I must congratulate you because you are so blessed for being able to turn this experience into a testimony..you are displaying God’s strength in you and I know we will continue to celebrate you and Bez..so much love for you ❤
Hmm, wot can I say….All i know is that God will always be God and He will forever be faithful.I thank God Almighty for the Faith u have in Him cos even with out Faith as little as a mustard seed, we will move mountains.Thank u for sharing,God bless and keep u.U will surely testify to the glory of God in Jesus mighty name!God bless you
My darling Bato!! I’m extremely proud of the woman you’ve grown up to become and your strength….I am totally in awe of you! I remember receiving the news when it happened and worrying about you on so many levels. You can’t imagine how excited I was to receive your BBM response when I first reached out. Your testimony gives courage to many women out there who are going through similar things or have had similar experiences but are simply victims of silence enforced by a society that says "shhhh….don’t speak". EVERY moment is a blessing and with an ever changing world, our only constant is our Heavenly Father. As a mother of two, I’m grateful for life in general for with those two, I had two surgeries and two life-threatening deliveries! Every breath despite our individual circumstances is a blessing!! I am also glad that you gave recognition to your husband….May God continue to bless both of you abundantly. For those out there on the TCC journey….our God is not asleep! He hears you, and sees your situation, so continue to forge ahead with him – remember the "Footprints in the Sand"? He is with us always! May God bless us all with joy, happiness, contentment and peace of mind that surpasses all understanding – Amen!
I cried while reading your story MA. The tear were for a lot of reason. The strength with which you write, your immense love for God, God faithful even in the storm and above all, your faith in God against all odds. I don’t know you but I would love to say thank you for sharing. God is really faithful. All we need is to draw near to him, love him and trust him. Your faith has encourage me. I don’t know what to say, but I prayed and I know God heard me. I can’t wait to here the next testimony. God will restore to u double. He will renew everything in your live. God bless you and your husband.
I sure can relate! I remember losing my first pregnancy… it came unexpectedly! I was not ill, or anything… I cried for days o! Replaying everything from when I got news of the pregnancy to losing it… but from the time I stepped out of the operating room, where I had the evacuation done… I burst out laughing (yeah… though drowsy, I was laughing)… my friend that was with me was a bit worried (I’m sure at that point she probably thought I had kolo_ed)… the devil could not hold me down! As painful as the experience was, I saw God at work. I waited 4 days before agreeing to do the evacuation, cos I was exercising my faith :p
I remember posting a song on Facebook before heading for the procedure-
Oh Thou who knowest my beginning,
Thou who created the plan,
who orchestrated my life’s journey;
God, You are my God.
God of decisions, Creator of answers,
Thou who ordained my way,
through my transition, held my position;
God, You are my God.
I will forever give You praise,
honor and celebrate Your name,
God of the past, present, and Who is to come;
oh God, You are my God.
Whatever You do with (me) it’s alright,
(You have my total trust), You have my trust.
(Glory and) honor, (dominion and) power;
(God, You are my God).
God, oh God,
You are the only wise God.
(Oh Thou who knowest my beginning),
(God, You are my God).
It’s well Bez & Wife, IBEJI LO SURE JU :* :* :* GOD IS SO FAITHFUL
I’m grateful to God for comforting you and yours at this time and especially for the strength He has given you to overcome this.
I just read your story on LIB and I’m so proud of the strength and faith emanating from your soul…….you’re indeed one of God’s warriors and I’m sure a lot of people going through downers will draw strength from this (me inclusive).
God is not a man that He would lie……..He will definitely give you beauty for ashes.
God bless you dear.
Your testimony is so beautiful and encouraging! Thank you so much for sharing it. It has blessed me more than you will ever know. I know God will reward you for your overwhelming faith in Him. You children will run round your table. It is well with you and yours. May you continue to be a blessings to others. God bless you xx
Thank God for comforting you & your husband. May His peace that surpasses all understanding never depart from you in Jesus’ name.
I thank God for your live and that of your husband. Hearing your story of loosing a child you carried to full term is heart rending. I’m moved to tears as I type this, as I can only imagine the level of pain you have felt. I thank God for the spirit he has given you and I’m confident that he will restore that which you have lost. I pray that he will not only restore but he will compensate you and your husband. Thank you for sharing your story with the world. You will testify in Jesus name. Amen
Waoh, Bolatito, this brought tears to my eyes, when you held her and sang to her. I had a similar experience only that, i could not hold him, I never even saw him, cos he was stillborn. I had to deal with so much, I cried, I asked God why, my hubby was there for me, until the last minute we still held on that there was going to be a miracle.
I really thank God for your life, been able to share this NOW. I didnt, God has faithfully blessed us with a BEAUTIFUL girl, who is going to be 14 months, on the 23rd. Just yesterday, she got an award for most amiable baby in teh Creche, when I look at her, I can not thank God enough.
I really admire your courage and I tell you, your home is going to be so blessed, according to God’s Word, you are a JOYFUL MOTHER of Children. Am sure you have come across the book SUPERNATURAL CHILDBIRTH by Jackie. Please read and hold on to God’s promises.
Am not Yourba, but in those dark moments, I found succour in Tope Alabi’s song, Egbega Egbega oo, Eba mi gbe ga ooo, ooo, I just wanted to lift God high beyond that situation.
God bless you Tito and Bez!!!
My greatest fear occurred in March 2013, same month as yours, just different days. And the first thing i did was make sure never to blame God. I take every day believing and trusting him that he who has been with me this far shall never leave my side. I thank God for giving you the strength, courage to share and faith to keep on trusting, i ask Yeshua to comfort you, uphold you and your hubby and bless you so much that even naysayers will be flabbergasted.
God bless you for sharing such a wonderful and touching story. He would reward you like he did Sarah with countless blessings.
I dont know you but reading ur story just gave me an inner strenght and greater faith in the almighty God, i admire ur strenght for sharing ur story, may God grant all ur heart desires and give u children that would be a pride to both u, ur husband and nations IJN amen
First, thank you for sharing this… Your story is indeed a blessing.
You prayed for a miracle but God gave you several miracles … The ability to see and hold, touch and connect with your daughter. That’s the greatest of them all. Many have given birth to still borns after going through similar experiences, God kept her till you saw her, spent time with her and bonded with her.
The other miracles you listed in your story are what people pray for a lifetime for … A supporting partner in sickness and in health, in the good and the bad, highs and lows of life.
God bless you Tito. God bless you Bez.
Remain blessed and thank you again for sharing your story
God bless you real good Tito. Your faith is simply astounding….I tap into your faith and hope mine can be strengthened. The Joy of the Lord will continually be your strength. Thank you so much for this piece….God bless you always.
Sis…like I always say and will continue to say you’re a superwoman and I’m grateful to God for his supernatural favor and strength that he has bestowed upon you and Bez
I know this story, but reading it made me feel like it’s the 1st time I’ve heard it,which is making cry like a baby all over again (no pun intended)
We have experienced the loss of loved ones in the family lately (including our brother Dee aka DeeCakeLado) lol I miss him so much,I bet Dee and our baby girl (Atinuke) are having a ball up there and smiling at you and Bez because they excited about the blessings and children coming your way
I love the fact that your faith remains solid and you just continue to live life and inspire people (including me)
You are Gods daughter and he must be super proud of you sharing for this testimony with the world….
May God continue to bless and comfort you and Bez,I love you guys so…
We are so sorry you lost your precious baby to CDH. We are also a grieving CDH family having lost my grandson to this terrible birth defect 5 years ago.
Thank you for the courage to come forward an tell you story. I hope you will also consider connecting with us here at CHERUBS -Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia Research, Awareness and Support.
CHERUBS is the world’s largest CDH charity, supporting over 5,000 families in 60 countries. They were a Godsend to us in those most difficult days and we are forever grateful for all their love & support that helped get us through.
You can check them out though their main website at: http://www.cherubs-cdh.org
They are also on Facebook at: http://www.facebook.com/cdhsupport
Sending prayers for comfort and may she frequently send you signs that she is close by. <3
Shelly Moore
CHERUBS Oregon (USA) Co-Rep
CHERUBS Parental Advisory Board (CPAB) volunteer
Grandma to CDH cherub angel Jayden Gilbert
Remembering Jayden – A Family’s Journey in Coping with Loss to CDH
http://rememberingjayden.blogspot.com
Faith at work, God bless you for sharing this testimony. It got me praying for the kind of Man I will want in my life,
"The reason I am sharing this is not because I want a pity party but because I want to share God’s love even in the midst of pain. I want to share His love NOW"…thank you very much Bolatito for sharing. no matter what we go through, God is still God, thank you for reinforcing this. God has turned your mourning to dancing, it will manifest real soon. you have shown us how God is the Source of strength & peace that is beyond human comprehension or ability. thank you.
I read this on Facebook and I quickly went to your instagram to check what it was about. It brought tears to my eyes but more importantly stressed the fact that God remains God through all that we experience. The Good, not so good and the really bad. I’ve learnt through your testimony that He remains sovereign in every situation. He is more important than any situation. Thank you so much for sharing this Tito. I pray that even in those times when the devil tries to bring negative thoughts, that the Voice of the Lord shall remain strong and clear in your heart. God bless you Tito and Bez. Love you!
Ur words ve lifted me,i jus lost a baby too.i agree with praising while u wait
This inspired me greatly. I cannot describe how much this spoke to my heart. God bless you greatly for sharing and allowing God use your story to bless me and many like me.
Tito I respect your courage so much to write on this experience. I couldn’t control tears rolling out of my eyes as I was reading it. I was also in your shoes in 2013. So I understand how you feel and as I was reading this I could relate to how you felt when it happened. I lost my son at birth and till now it’s difficult taking that experience off my mind. I have a baby girl now and God gave her to me same day I lost her brother after 12 months. I pray that God will turn your pain to gain as he did mine IJN. You are indeed a strong woman I couldn’t hold my son like you did to your daughter, I didn’t have the mind to do that despite all the persuasion from nurses and doctors and till today I wished I held him and take pictures with him. I pray to God to bless you with a perfect and wonderful baby and restore the lost glory as he did for me.
" Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him." These are the encouraging words of Job. Tito, your testimony is for the strenghtening of the body of Christ worldwide. God bless you and Bez.I don’t know you from Adam, but I now know you in spirit.Be prepared to receive in abundance from this God you have so lifted. Your baby is ‘safe in the arms of Jesus.’
Sam.
I read this with a heavy heart because I know you…or I knew you from way back, from high school I remember you as the bubbly Bolatito, so full life and energy. To read this breaks my heart to imagine all the different emotions you must have experienced and possibly still going through. I am more amazed your level of faith in God because I know you come from a Muslim background. This story makes me evaluate my reason and purpose in life, makes me review my closeness to God and question my inadequate submission to Him. I celebrate you today because you have shamed the enemy and touched lives . you have given many reasons to believe even when all hope is lost. I admire you friend and I believe your testimonies of his goodness will never cease. God bless you richly Bolatito
Thanks for sharing may you reap the reward of obedience soonest. I came across this link now and I thought it might be useful. http://faithhub.net/99-balloons/?utmsource=FACE&utmmedium=PROUD&utmterm=07172015&utmcampaign=LINK. Receive continuous strength in Jesus Name.
Hey Tito,
God is ever faithful and has an unending supply of good gifts for his children. Your daughter is still alive and not dead. She is enjoying d higher life with God now in DAT royal crystal palace in heaven. Though her human shell we call body could not hold her spirit, the transformed body she has now is so beautiful. We do not know it all on heart, but when we get to heaven we will umderstand better dat wat we sometimes count as a loss on heart, is actually not. God is too big for our normal human understanding to dysifer…
Hey dear,
Am so glad that you passed your test, I failed mine….woefully, I lost my faith, had to fast and pray to regain it back.
You shared your challenges and you strengthened me and so many others, so many of us act strong and macho like we don’t face trying times.
Read through all the comments and realised God draws us closer to Him through trials.
Thank you Tito for being the reason so many people’s faith will be restored.
I cried and then I thanked God for for his faithfulness. I saw you two Sundays ago at GLA. You and your husband sat across me. I would never have guessed! May God strengthen you. May you always have reason to praise. Your joy has been restored. I wish you all the best. God bless you.
Beautiful testimony Tito. Thank you for sharing. Just from scanning the comments, your testimony has already been an inspiration to many. May you and Bez continue to rely on and trust in God alone. As the psalmist says, “He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust.“
God bless you both.
Chez x
God bless you both! "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him" 1Corinthians 2v9
AMEN!!! Thanks Titi!
I love what you are doing and had always wanted to do such, but it’s not by power nor by might, but by the spirit and the grace of God. Thank you for putting this up and for sharing your testimony. I had a similar experience and what made it more emotional was that I had waited for a while to be blessed with a child and God gave me four at ones but the devil visited and Jesus gave us the victory, they are in heaven now but God wiped so much tears and we could smile again. during this time, "praise was what I did" and I discovered the Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir ministry at the time their songs inspired me and made me strong and I could sing a victory song in the time of war because the battle was the Lord’s. So I encourage whoever is reading this, to hold on, help is on the way, He will pick you up, hold your hands and heal your pain and of course, you gonna smile again and again and again….. Shalom!
Hi Tito thanks for giving me hope I lost a child in November last tear and I haven’t gotten over it yet but am glad this write up lifted my spirit! yes in his time ,cos our good is indeed an awesome God! Keep bin strong.
Hi Jibola, I am truly sorry about your loss. It is so painful. I am glad God used this message to lift up your spirits. The joy of the Lord will always be your strength.
I have shared this link with everyone, I am also making sure they read it and tap into the strength that lies within this testimony. You may have just changed my life. Everyday I am now consciously reminding myself that if God can get you through something like this and you are this brave, nothing that can happen will overcome me. Nothing happens to you but for you like Joel Osteen says. God bless you dear. For your shame God will give you double honour and make your storehouses overflow with abundant blessings. God bless you, your husband and family and keep your marriage growing stronger each day.
Wow Alex!!!! Thanks so much!! I continue to pray that people find healing through my experience. That is the entire point. Thanks so much for your prayers. May God remain faithful to you always.
God Bless you for sharing!! I lost someone special two years ago and I haven’t been able to get over it. You story gives me strength …… Thank you
Yewande
I am so sorry about your loss Yewande.. it is always a journey and I pray God continues to give you comfort. love, Tito.
Wooow!!!! Sigh* I am speechless and amazed!! Thank you for this share! I knew nothing about this site till today. Really wonderful!!! Adebola
Read this, Madonna’s song- ‘you’ll see’ came to mind. Strange- hope it ministers to you in a different way. Heal and be strong.
Thanks for sharing your testimony Tito. Sorry for your loss. May your beautiful daughter rest in the arms of the Lord. She did not know the pain and suffering or heartbreak of this world.
Like in the story of Job, we don’t understand why bad things can happen to good people. We just know things happen to test us, and we have a choice on how to respond to such things. God also does not give us challenges we cannot handle.
I too suffered a similar loss, and did not lose my faith. I had my down moments, and questioned why, but ultimately surrendered to God and wanted his Glory to show in our lives.
I pray in the coming months you continue to look forward and not behind, and draw upon the love God has for us.
Bolatito,
Tears rolled down my eyes as I read your story, it wasn’t only for the fact that you had to go through the pain of loosing a dear child, but the remarkable strength you have shown to this point. You are truly an inspiration to women. I consider myself a strong woman having gone through the loss of a husband and my 3 weeks old baby all in the same year, but I can tell you I wasn’t half as strong as you are at that moment. I remember I wasn’t in talking terms with God for close to a year after that and I definately wasn’t In the mood to give him praise under those circumstances. But inspite of my anger and resentment towards him. I tell you, he has been faithful. He gave me time to grieve and gently reconciled me to himself. He fulfilled Mattew 5:4 that says "blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted"
Tito I never knew I would survive it, but he made me smile again, he brought me out of my shell and took away all the pain and bitterness. I live to tell my story!
I am so sorry for your loss and no amount of words I say can comfort you but my prayer is; may he comfort you the way he comforted me, and I can assure you He will restore everything the Devil has stolen from you. May you continue to grow in strength and understanding and know that the thoughts He thinks towards us are thoughs of Good not of evil to bring us to an expected end. And like you said "it hurts God more to see you in that situation" do take care my dear I will contact you when I return to Nigeria next month.
Cheers
Doris
Doris!!! You know you are one of the strongest people I know. What you have overcome is incredible. God is so good and he always restores everything. He is the one who can use our biggest tragedies for amazing Good and I know he has done that for you. I can’t wait to see you Sis!!! much love!
Oh dear Tito, wish I could give you a huge bear hug.
As a writer, I’m rarely short of words. This was hard to read but then one cannot but praise God and bless Him. The test truly becomes the testimony. You have gone through the fire BUT you did not allow the enemy get the better of you. God reigns!
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Your testimony WILL bless many and I pray that as it blesses them, God will continue to use you to encourage others and make a difference for His glory.
I felt the peace you must have experienced while reading.
We get to meet her in heaven. God bless your family
Thanks Dr.N. God bless you!!
My dear Tito, Joke told me last week about your website, your experience and everything you’ve been through. I had no idea Hun. I had to come and see for myself to understand. I am so so proud of you. So proud. I always knew you were phenomenal girl and it is so great to see how you are helping so many women deal with their pain and hurt. Well done. Lots of love to you and Bez, and hope to see you in December. Tokini Xxx
Your testimony is a ministration! I’m almost in tears… Of joy not sorrow. I lost someone so dear to me almost 10 years ago. He remains God anyhow and deserves praise! God bless you! Mina
Hi Tito,
It’s funny how I read your post about two weeks ago and gently touched my belly praying I won’t have to go through the same… Sadly I lost my 20 week old baby yesterday, due to pre-mature labour. He was so perfect and tiny. For lack of a better word I feel empty, I feel like I failed him… I keep replaying the events leading up to his death in my mind and wishing I went to the hospital sooner or insisted the doctor checked me out properly. I pray for strength like yours to accept that God knows best and Its so difficult to praise Him right now but I know He doesn’t give us more than we can bare.
I pray for everyone hurting right now.. May the Balm of Gilead console and heal us and may our dearly departed rest in peace.
Ps- thanks for sharing your story… I pray I will be able to share mine fully one day.
Thank you
Busola
Hi Busola,
I am so heartbroken for you and truly sorry you lost your perfect boy. I can imagine all the ‘what ifs", ‘buts’ and ‘if onlys’ running through your mind but the truth is that it was not your fault and I really pray you will believe that despite the lies of the enemy, God truly does not give us more than we can bear and after we go through the valley we will reach a place of abundance. It is in the storm that we see God on a new level. The most important thing now is to focus on God in anyway possible. if not through prayer, through writing and if not that true music and then also talking.
I thank God for giving me the courage to speak and share and I am thankful that my story is encouraging you. I know God has a plan and purpose for us all and that definitely includes you. You are so blessed. I am truly in awe of your strength Sis and I know God will continue to comfort you.
Please send me an email if you want to talk more or just express yourself. I am always here.
much love,
Tito.
Wow ….. All I can say is your testimony to praise God inspire of the trials and loss is very encouraging. I have never lost a child but I cannot imagine your pain and loss . Being able to relate this to my career right now especially trying to write my board exams and move on like everyone around me is ….. Sometimes its not easy to praise God in the hallway while the door is shut but after reading your testimony and if the courage the Lord has given you, I have come to understand the importance of praising God all the time. The good times, the bad times and the ugly times. God will continue to strengthen your family and all the enemy stole from you just like Job will be restore a million folds. God bless you
And now she’s a mother. Isn’t this God we serve a God who never forgets his children?Lord I just want to say thank you on behalf of Tito, I know my simple thank you isn’t enough to show how grateful I am because you continue to prove yourself over and over again. As I wait on my own miracle may God give me the faith not just any how faith but a deeper and stronger faith in him to hold on to his words and remember what ever he says is what he will do because he is not man that lies. Glory be to God